Thankful Thursdays

I know I missed last week. I was recovering from a horrid trip to Detroit.

So for today...

1. I am very thankful I'm no longer in Michigan even if it means I don't get to meet my beloved Cyli Lady

2. My furbabies. They love me unconditionally even if the canine monsters like to make me late for work. Smokey Cat for wanting so much to be an inside kitty. Rasta Pasta for talking to me during dinner. Nemo for reminding me in the morning that feeding the felines is the ONLY thing I better be worried about. Kaji for keeping the boy kitties in their place with a few well placed paw smacks. Scrat for the joy he is. Oscar for the satellite he is - I am his sun. Cliff for still being the best dog I've ever had, hands down.

3. My OB/Gyn. Weird I know, but she tells it like it is, whether I want to hear it or not. And thanks to her today, I have hope for one more shot at an IVF. We are still deciding whether or not we want to take it. The last one was devastating. But I have to say I tried everything. So the medical plan is being switched for the new year (I love open enrollment) so if we decide yes we are covered for one more shot. I turn 40 in 2010. If I'm not pregnant by then I'm done trying. We all have to move forward sometime. That will be my D day. 9/14/2010

Wish us luck.

Wordless Wednesday

Things

are not going well in Foster Parent land.

Still no new placement. Yes we know why. No I cannot elaborate. We are dealing with the circumstances as best we can.

Those of you in the know should know that we have our ducks in a row for whatever may come down the pipe, but in the end it could still mean no children at all. Ever.

It's a very hard prospect to face. But we will face it together.

Just let me point out that I am sick of whatever it is that has decided we don't deserve children. Don't tell me it will happen if it's meant to be. How the hell can someone justify guaranteeing two people that would make great parents not getting the opportunity. That kind of meant to be can just stuff it.

It's flat out not fair.

Veteran's Day

Spare a thought for all our troops today whatever and wherever they may be.

Thankful Thursdays

I'm joining a bandwagon for two reasons:

1. Cookie is doing it and I love her
2. There has been a lot of negativity in my blog for the past year and I need to start bringing the positive back.

Thankful Thursdays - a weekly post about being thankful

1. For my internet friends. My plurk, twitter, facebook and blog friends. Some I know in person, some I haven't formally met yet. But all of you have helped me get through the sadness of the last year and I'm still mostly sane because of you.

2. My husband. He made sure, in spite of everything that didn't work this year and everything that keeps coming up medically, that I know that no matter what he loves me and will always love me. I am basically stuck with him. ;-)

3. My Knotty Knitters. I don't go often, but they were there one and all rooting for us during the IVF, and comforting me during the failure. They've seen the ups and downs of the last two years and welcome me wholeheartedly every time I show up.

I am blessed, even if I don't always remind all of you that I know how blessed I am that you let me into your lives.

Wordless Wednesday

Maybe they will, but they'll have to look mighty hard.

Target Practice

I'm a little tired of the hands of Fate using me for target practice.

You all know the news from Tuesday.

Well yesterday was an equally sucky day for my car. My poor 10 year old, in fine condition, well loved Ford Explorer.

Woman making a left turn against my going straight through the intersection apparently didn't see me and turned in front of me. I hit brakes but couldn't stop in time. I'm pretty sure she didn't even hit the brakes, she just wanted to beat the light. I didn't swerve because I drive an Explorer and didn't really feel like rolling it.

Airbags deployed and everything. NOT something I ever want to experience again in my life since I first thought the car was on fire from all the smoke from the deploy. The deploy of the bags even burned the sweater I had on, not that I noticed right away.

Since the other driver failed to yield I probably won't be held at fault. Little compensation if I don't get my car back. And it's only worth $5000 and the insurance company totals a car if repairs come in at or above 75% of value. I don't think I'm getting my car back. It has the worst amount of damage of any accident I've ever been in.

I love my car. And there is no way hubby is letting me in anything smaller than it.

So I'd like to get through the rest of the week without anything else horrible happening.

That said they are installing Solar at my house today. The husband has been told to keep his happy, helpful, likes to be in the thick of things self off the roof. Period.