Wordless Wednesday

Let the record show I'm in a good mood as long as I ignore the people logging cases with my employer.

Need New Socks

and I don't knit nearly fast enough.

Imagine this.

1. Go in and get the T.R.U.E. Test Allergan patch test done.

2. Get results.

3. Realize you need to replace most of your wardrobe.

4. Have an absolute hissy fit because you HATE shopping for jeans and socks and pretty much everything!

That's right I got the results back. Biggest one is Carba Mix. That's rubber people. That's stuff in ten gazillion things you use every day from your shoes, to the handles on your workout equipment, to the spandex in your favorite stretch jeans. Generic Spandex that is.

So first I have to throw out all my socks. I don't knit fast enough for this.

I need new jeans - so far online I've only been able to find one brand that has either the registered Lycra spandex content, or polyester elastane. And of course they are not cheap.

Most of my t-shirts are toast.

I should probably just switch to linen or 100% cotton for pants but I'm not having a lot of luck there and gosh knows I'm not buying anything that hs to be dry cleaned if I don't have to.

Second worst reaction was to a formaldehyde complex used in insulation, fiberglass and the glues used to make plywood. This one wasn't too much of a shocker. We knot fiberglass and insulation hate me.

Last one is to Budesonide - this is a corticosteroid used commonly to treat skin disease. It's in a ton of OTC anti itch creams as well as prescription creams (including the one I've been using for the past two months) and many nasal sprays. Ask me what I've been using on my skin to make the itchies go away.

And the one they prescribed to me today after checking the list of ones to avoid.... made my hand burn mildly after I applied it to my legs. Same EXACT CHEMICAL COMPOSITION of one of the things on the list that it states I will probably react to as well!!!!

I am sick of being a freak of nature.

PS if you care to take pity on me and/or want to knit me socks. I wear a 7.5. I like shorties. I'll take any color except solid black, grey or brown. The brighter the better. Now I have to go finish my neon orange Fawkes sock of which I made the first one last summer.

Knitters Do

We were watching 'De-Lovely' last night and there is a scene where Cole and Mr Murphy are on horseback and talking about Murphy's son's TB prognosis and how their wives are there to help them through the tough times.

Mr Murphy said at the end of it, "who catches them when they fall? " meaning the wives.

My answer for me is that Knitters Do.

I went to my Saturday knit group for the first time in about 6 weeks this past weekend. They've been following on my blog and my FB account everything Slugbo and I have been going through with the adoption stuff and Little N. They've seen the mood swings caused by the IVF drugs and the heartbreak when neither of them worked.

They know how hard it is for us to be going through this.

So I got to knit group Saturday and when I walked in some of the ladies were off to the side working on the crocheted border of a blanket. I said it looked nice without really looking at it (though I did wonder but not out loud if they needed help with the crochet) and started talking to Ba, thinking the blanket was for Angelita's new grandson, since her daughter is also part of our knit group.

A little while later I'm fighting with my lace and Carol has to leave and is saying goodbye to everyone and the next thing I know the blanket gets plopped down in my lap with them saying it's for me. Of course I promptly burst into tears.

Lynne, Anne, Sheri, Carol, Jan, Lois, Mary Sue, Liz, Angelita, Rosemary, Bridget, Kristen, Ba, June, and Taunya all contributed a square or two.

Ba, Carol, Jan, Angelita, Anne, Laura, Lynne, Sheri and Rachel all contributed to the putting together and the border.

Now most of these ladies I know. A couple I might be able to pick out in the group by process of elimination and there are at least 2 I haven't officially met. Quite a few of these ladies are super busy in their home and professional life. The fact that any of them took time out of their regularly scheduled knitting to make something like this for me, let's me know that even if I'm not a regular at the group, they have my back. They are my support group no matter how long it's been since the last visit.

Thanks so much my Knotty Knitters.

It's beautiful and I'll treasure it always.

The Roadblocks Keep Coming

Come back later for an update. Right now the mood is not conducive to coherent communication.

PS - On a good note, the family that Little N is going to is very nice and we believe they will do a fine job with her and her sister, Little T, and we will probably still get to see her from time to time.

PPS - Happy 23rd Birthday to my nephew Michael. Get your head out of your b* and you might actually make it to your 24th. :-)

Camping and Jet Skiing

are the plan for the next three days.

Y'all have a great 4th of July weekend.

Not Sure How Much More

I can be expected to take.

1. They are putting little N's sister into a concurrent planning home this weekend.

2. They scheduled the transition meeting to map out how to move Little N into the same home for Monday, even though Slugbo clearly told the woman handling the scheduling that he cannot make it and I cannot make it.

3. So they are making decisions for Little N without any input from us. They are putting her little sister into a home where the mom speaks next to no English. This is great for the little sister, but little N doesn't know Spanish. Her sister is only two and will be easier to get her to switch to English, rather than force N to switch to Spanish.

4. They are going to trigger more nightmares about Mexico for little N by placing her in this home. I have nothing against the couple they are placing her with, I just believe they chose very poorly. They are looking at her last name rather then at HER.

5. State Adoptions shut us down completely today. They have told us to use the private agency we were referred to. They are citing budget constraints (stupid effing state government that doesn't know how to save money without screwing over programs that are needed). They are not moving forward with any couples that are not already in the home study process. They will be calling the private agency directly to let them know it is okay to work with us in this aspect (the supervisor at State Adoptions is married to the Foster Coordinator at the private agency - sigh). We start from square one.

We just want to help give a child(ren) a safe loving home.

This day needs to end.