Friday, February 6, 2009

He is Tired Too.

Hubby went on the attack with our RE* yesterday.

We had a really long meeting with him about
  • what happened
  • what could have been the cause for such a poor response (I know this one - I'm broken) to the meds
  • what will be different next time
  • what protocols we have to choose from
  • why did he choose the one we are doing next (Microdose Lupron Flare Protocol) vs the Antagonist protocol
Hubby told him he's tired of watching me fall apart when what they try fails (I could have TOTALLY taken that the wrong way, but he was upset and I know he did not mean it that way). He wants them to stop being conservative with us (me). We want to do whatever has the best chance of a better response and more eggs so we have some to choose from for the transfer.

No I will NOT take the route of the woman in SoCal. UCSF standards call for 3 transferred for my age group. Their multiple rate is very low and I trust my doctor. I don't want a multiple birth. I just want one healthy baby, though I admit twins doesn't sound too scary.

If, when we get to the baseline portion of the new ride, it looks like I'm a better fit of the other protocol, my doc will stop the cycle and switch me over. I am prepared for this possibility since it will happen BEFORE I start all the shots this time.

Hubby also made it clear that the only doctor we are willing to see during this cycle is him. We know they are part of a practice, and it's a teaching facility and I have NO problem with Fellows seeing me with him. But every major medical decision we have to make this cycle will have his input. Period. Else we won't start until he doesn't have a planned vacation coming up for the extent of the cycle.

So the roller coaster ride begins again February 15th.

*reproductive endocrinologist


Anonymous said...

Great, Big, Positve Thoughts going your way.......



Hattie said...

I hope it goes well! I feel for anyone who has trouble in this area. There are so many ppl who have kids and don't deserve them, and so many who can't and do deserve it. Best wishes!

Fear and Parenting in Las Vegas said...

Hugs and prayers honey.

Devyl Gyrl said...

*Gentle hugs*

I am thinking all kinds of positive thoughts, and praying for you and hubby. I wish there was something more I could do. You are incredible.


Alyson said...

Nothing but good thoughts for you......someone with your desire and determination has to come out on top eventually. AND YOU WILL!

del said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog, Tiny Tyrant.

I just wanted to say my thoughts and prayers are with you and your hubby. I can't imagine how difficult this must be but I really hope everything works out for you two! You guys sound like you'd be awesome parents (I went back & read about McGee--compassionate people deserve good things, you know).

Barb said...

I think it's so empowering to be able to dictate some of the expectations. And I think you're taking your husband's comment exactly the right way--I mean, it must be incredibly hard for him to see you devastated after all you've done in hopes of conception.

I'll be praying for you! Hang in there!